Thats my weakness since last time. So much for seeing the good in others when in the end I’m the one suffering. I just feel so.. Vulnerable. I can’t even. I hate this feeling. When you trust people too much. It’s true What nenek says ‘kalau syg org jgn terlalu, kalau benci jgn terlalu’ and definitely when it comes to trust, not too much too. Sigh. The world is beautiful but humans just complicate it. Too caught up with always wanting things to go their own way.
Can I just have a big tight long bear hug now? Anyone just anyone. Seriously. I just need motivation and strength. I lose my mood easily nowadays. So…. Emotionally unstable. Weak in other words. Have absolutely no idea what’s happening to me. Studying seems so hard now compared to in cedar. Everything is just so tough.
Laugh it off, just laugh it off. That’s what I tell myself. It’s usually successful during daytime. But when it comes to nighttime I just feel alone. Everyone’s asleep. Social networking sites? Yeah a bit of company. But not enough to keep me away from giving in to my emotions. My thoughts are the ones killing me every night.
Can’t wait for jcts to be over but I’m not ready AT ALL.
Good luck. Humaira