step out of the shade;

EXCO 2012-2013

(Dini is not in the picture)

The people whom i see at least twice a week for mcs sessions. 

I never knew that i would grow so attached to the people up there. The frequent meetups have definitely made us much closer, i would say.

Honestly, my JC life wouldn’t have been better if not for them, if not for MCS. No matter how much admin/non-admin work that needs to be done in preparation for semarak, I’ve never dreaded meetings. No matter how exhausted i am after a whole dreadful day of lessons, my frown will never fail to turn upside down with my laughing pills around<3

I still remember how cikgu was so insistent to not carry out semarak this year due to the lack of manpower and the dwindling number of members ever since… JCTs. Everything was so smooth-sailing in J1 before JCTs and Promos, and i still remember how all the J1s were so bonded and we enjoyed ourselves during senadi. But due to academic performance, everything seemed to tumble down ever since. Just realised how academics and grades are so important not only in TJ, but also in the real world (Singapore at least). Without your grades, you just lose so many opportunities and it really saddened me because i remember seeing myself and some of my other friends sink into depression as everyone stuggled to keep afloat.

Oh well, but i’m glad the EXCO fought for the continuation of Semarak, because it would definitely affect our reputation. I’m glad we gave our best during orientation to get members to save our pathetic membership. And look where we are now.

One thing for sure is that, my fellow MCS members (those who are no longer in mcs/those having mcs as their second pdp), are continuously giving their support and commitment to not let the pdp die down. And this burning spirit in them always makes me feel that i have a very huge support system of friends who are always willing to help us out one way or another in making our events a success. Thank you, my friends.

I’ve never regretted a single thing that ever happened to me in TJ; because when i look back, everything seems to make sense. The chain of events that took place from last year till today, somehow are linked and without all those incidents, i would never have been part of this beautiful 2nd family :)

Thank you Allah, for blessing me.

Now, to look forward to making Semarak 2013 a success.

And then, full blast for A levels. One goal. :)

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We have no right to say that no one deserves forgiveness, because clearly, everyone does. 

If Allah can forgive us humans for the biggest mistakes that we have ever done in our lives, why can’t we forgive our fellow beings who are sharing the same Earth as us?

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EVERYTHING LOVE

(Source: hazels-abused-lungs)

Wow, just realised i haven’t posted in a very long time.

How i wish i can easily translate my thoughts into words, it’s just so hard sometimes. Sigh.

I miss so many things, and i miss so many people. Heart-aching.

Wondering how the little kids in Cambodia are, may they be kept safe and grow up to be healthy and bright people. Will NEVER forget rai, man, and nun and the other small kids whom i didn’t have the time to get to know their names.

I think so many things have changed ever since i entered JC. I’ve definitely learned not to depend too much on others, cos some way or another they will leave. Even if they don’t, you just don’t have time for each other. And no matter how bitter it is, you have to slowly let the fact sink in, and eventually you realise that you have only yourself. 

It’s going to be a tough year ahead. But i’ll emerge stronger than ever right? Right.

No one will truly understand what i’m feeling right now. 

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Alhamdulillah, today was the first official meeting for adopted charity 2013. May Allah guide me as i embark on this journey to make Ramadhan 2013 better for the less fortunate community~ Ukhti was so motherly, that was my first impression of her, looking forward to working with her. And ofc, the rest of the committee members :) Hmm, i don’t know whether i’m shouldering such a big responsibility, but insyaAllah, i can do it. I mean, if Allah brings me to it, He surely will bring me through it right? Just like how i managed to juggle so many responsibilities last year when i had my o levels. Yes, am very aware that i’m facing a levels next year. 

Sometimes, i just feel like abandoning my studies to pursue islamic studies, but unfortunately, it is not always that easy.

I’m really not prepared for next year, and next year will definitely be one of the most eventful year. Hmm.

I’m so scared… Of the future.

Ya Allah, please guide me through this journey and please erase all these doubts that are making my heart worry.